dissonance

So I should go ahead and warn you that this may make absolutely no sense at all. But it's just something I've thought about lately and if I don't write it out, it's going to eat me. Ok not really. But it has been on my mind.

I've talked to a lot of friends lately who've had really bad experiences with relationships. And I guess it really got me thinking about love. True love. Not this disgusting, watered down mess the world has made of it. But the pure, unselfish love that God designed. And maybe it's the (potential) music major in me that puts everything into musical terms...But this is just how I look at it.

When writing music, sometimes the composer puts in a few clashing notes to produce this thing called dissonance. Which is just simply a lack of harmony. However strange it may sound, it is still beautiful and serves a purpose. It really builds the suspense or emotion of a song leading up to a resolution or a cadence. While you may not notice it listening to music, I think you'd notice if it wasn't there. Or at least hear the difference. I guess I just view heartache and love in that same way. The failed attempts at love and heartbreaks are necessary in order to fully appreciate the beautiful resolution God has planned. If the dissonance wasn't there, the resolution would be less powerful. I also think the "dissonance" works as sort of a purifying process that God uses to mold us into the person we're supposed to be for the person He has out there for us. The dissonance proves that something better is coming. The waiting is probably the hardest part. But to me, knowing that God's taking such time to prepare someone for me makes me want to work that much harder on making myself into someone deserving of that.

I also picture finding your "true love" in musical terms. You've got two different melodies. Each written by God in perfect complement of the other. Each are beautiful when heard separately. but when played together, it becomes something else entirely. Where you might find others that work, there's only one that matches up perfectly. (That was silly.)
This could just be the hopeless romantic in me talking. But again, this is all just my opinion. Half crazed, half sleep deprived opinion.

I should just go to sleep instead of typing this stuff.